Answer...

OK so my last post I asked a very important question. Might not be important to you but I NEED your opinion! I only got 2 comments and I know more than 2 people read my blog. Well I know of atleast 3 people that read it. :) Answer me....short or long!!!!

I'm Better!!!

Well this past week has been something else!  I'll give you a brief rundown!  Well remember when I had to go through all that crazy blood work?  I got the results back and the doctor told me that I was a "pre" diabetic or insulin resistant.  I got this super cute little blood checker, I still don't know the technical word for the stupid little thing.  I had to check it first thing in the morning and two hours after dinner.  I had these certain numbers that I needed to get within to be good.  She gave me the choice to try and fix it myself with diet and exercise or go on some medicine.  So I decided on choice number 1.  After the first week I got frustrated and thought that since I was dieting and exercising the numbers should be changing.  I mean seriously I had lost 13 pounds, they should have been doing something.  So I gave up and called the doctor and said just put me on the medicine.  I'm all about a "quick" fix!  Well little did I know that was going to be a complete disaster! With this medicine you have to build up adding 1 pill a week until you're taking freaking 4 pills a day.  Week 1 was fine.  But the day that I took 2 pills everything went completely downhill and I mean fast.  The first day I just thought that I was having a bad day.  Then day 2 happened and I couldn't hardly open my mouth without crying.  I had to go home early from work and was out the next day too.  The more I read about it the more it made sense.  My body was trying to get my sugar levels under control while in turn sending me WAY out of control!  This happened to me a few years ago but I had completely forgotten about it.  So I immediately stopped taking the medicine and I'm going back to doing it the right way.  I'm sure everyone I was around was like seriously what the crap is wrong with her.  And listen if you felt that way please keep it to yourself!  Great news is that I'm feeling completely normal again and I can have a conversation with you and not cry!  Yay! :)

OK now to a much more serious question.....

I'm thinking about chopping my hair off again!  I'm not talking above my ears or anything, just shorter.  I am trying to grow it out for summer so I can have a ponytail.  But the past couple of days I just feel blah!  I feel so sassy with shorter hair!  Tell me what you think....no promises that I'll listen but I'm still curious.  Cut it or grow it......

Happy Valentine's Day

You know Valentine's Day use to REALLY depress me when I didn't have a boyfriend.  But then about 4 years ago I did have a boyfriend and it was HORRIBLE!  It was exactly how I always "thought" Valentine's should be....a dozen red and white, gorgeous, long stem roses delivered to my work, we went out to a really nice restaurant for dinner, and he got me 3 other gifts...but I was miserable!  I actually broke up with him that night.  I'm really not a mean person it had just been building and it happened to all go down that night.  So since that year I could care less if I have a boyfriend on Valentine's Day.  And know I always love when it's getting close because there's always tons of pink things in every store!

I ended up coming to Allison's for the weekend.  I've been trying to come the past 3-4 weekends and it just never worked out.  Evan and Noah gave me 2 super cute PINK frames with our pictures in them.  And Evan told me about 15 times today...Happy Balentive's Mimi!  The sweetest thing!  

So things might not happen the picture perfect way but they'll be perfect for me!!!!

Too Long

Geez I didn't realize how long it had been since I last blogged.  And there was A LOT that went on this past week.  Well I officially had my first week of the biggest loser competition.  I had my first weigh in on Monday and I couldn't have been more excited for what the scales said....I lost 12.8 pounds!!!  I never ever ever would have thought that I would have lost that much.  I worked so hard and it felt really good!  

THEN on Wednesday I decided, very spur of the moment, to go to Florida for the weekend.  I had been wanting to go down for the past few months but the time was never right.  Allison and I had set a date to go down in March and I have been counting down the days.   I hadn't seen Jimmy in almost 2 years and it was killing me!  Then on Wednesday I got an email from him and I was like screw it I'm going down there this weekend.  Maybe Allison is right, that I will do anything for someone I care about!  But if you're one of my good friends...I'll be there for you through thick and thin!  The road isn't always going to be a smooth one but I'll hold your hand while we bump through it together!  

It was so nice to plan it that quick because I didn't have to be counting down the days until I left.  It was the best weekend!  It was so good to have things like they use to be for a few days.  We went to the outlet malls on Saturday with Melanie.  It was so good to get to hang out with her like old times too.  Jimmy and I didn't do alot....hung out, watched movies, and talked.  Then Logan and Lexie took me to the airport on Sunday....still scary to think that Logan can drive!   Well knowing that I'm for sure coming back the beginning of March made it a little bit easier to leave, not a ton but a little.  It was an awesome weekend but it made me miss the way things use to be even more.  I know that things wouldn't be the same if I still lived down there.  I wish that I could move those few that I still care a ton about up here to be with me.  That would be perfect! 

It seems like something else happened this past week but I can't think of it.  Oh I did start a bible study with a group of girls that I'm really excited about.  We met for the first time this past Wednesday.  I'm really excited to see where this all goes!

I'm going to go but I promise I won't wait as long to blog this next time!

Day 2

Day  2 and I have been able to stay on schedule!  Got up again at 5am and went to the gym!  I got in bed last night at 9pm to wind down and read.  The plan was to turn the lights out at 9:30pm but I couldn't put my book down until 10pm.  But I already feel SO much better!  Oh geez I had another vivid dream last night.  Don't worry Jimmy I'm not mad at you! :)  It was so weird!  

Have I told anybody recently that I'm SO ready to be in Florida?!?!?!  I can't wait to smell Tropicana!  I remember when I first moved down there that smell made me want to puke!  Now I wish so bad I could smell it every night again!   I miss being able to drive 5 minutes, or 15 after I moved out east, to get to the beach!  I think I miss that more than anything!  Oh and there are a few people that I miss more and more everyday too, you probably know if you are one of those lucky people! ;)  But only 5 weeks and counting!!!!  Allison and I and the boys are going to be there a super long time.  This is my longest visit that I've ever had there!  We're going to Disney World, Melanie's in a play that we're going to get to see, and the most important thing that we will do the entire time we're there.........seeing Britney Spears!!!!!!  Yes, that's right I love her!  She's coming back....just wait....you'll see!   I just hope that these next 5 weeks fly by!  Anyways I gotta finish getting ready for work!

The Biggest Loser!

OK well it officially starts today!  And so far it's going great! :)  I got up at 5am and went straight to the gym.  Came home and had breakfast....Special K wild berry waffles with two patties of turkey sausage.  The great news about that is that I could only eat one of the patties of turkey sausage!  I took a shower and got completely ready and packed my lunch all with 30 minutes to spare!  Seriously this has NEVER EVER happened!  But I'm loving it!  I'm not rushing around trying to get out the door.  Please please please pray that I will get/stay motivated to do this.  I kicked serious butt with it last year but I am slightly discouraged because I don't have my rock/drill sargent in my pod anymore....better known as Gretchen! :(  She made me a workout calendar and gave me stickers every time I worked out.  I knew if I didn't work out, holy crap I would get it!  So I'm going to have to motivate myself this time.  And if I was any good at that I wouldn't be where I am right now.  So if you read this I need you to constantly encourage me and if you can find a way to motivate me that would be awesome as well!  I did make myself a workout calendar and I'll be able to add a sticker first thing this morning! Yay! I just have to take it one day at a time and know that it's going to take time.  I know I can do it because I've lost the same weight about 3 times.  OK well I better get going! PRAY PRAY PRAY!!!! :)